Le ciel satinè

Le ciel ressemble au satin
Le soleil est le paradis
Le vent murmures

Ici est paradis pour moi
En la nature avec toi

Le vent dans le cheveux
Le soleil en tes yeuxs
Paradis pour moi

J’adore la monde de la dieu
Je sens la paix
Je sens le vent et le murmure de dieu
Je sens ton ame
Je sens le dieu

En moi est paix parce que la natur
Mon ame est en paix aussi

Je voyager à travers les montagnes et sur les lacs sous le ciel de satin

Je cherche pour amour, je me cherche, mon ame rèflèchit sur l’eau

Le mer est calme et le vent est belle
Les oiseux chanson avec mon ame
Je suis en paradis en la natur

Paradise est en toi
Je vive en la coeur de la natur
Sous le ciel
Sous le ciel de belle soleil

Je trouve segesse en la natur
Et belle en la nature
Et amour en la coeur de toi

Merci pour ton ame
Merci pour la vie
Merci le dieu pour toute en ma vie

Covid19 comes closer…

It is true to say that these are dangerous times. The Corona Virus is a pandemic spreading across the world and is all everybody talks about.

This is an enemy like no other enemy. There is no safe country or a place to flee to so we can be safe. It is basically expanding to within every country.

The Corona Virus was originally a virus in a far away land on the news. A virus which happens to other people. Which often never truly enters our world.

But then suddenly Europe has many cases and cases exist within my own country. Then the media turns its attention to this dangerous disease. Then it has been coming closer and closer to my own front door and into my world. Suddenly I hear of people around me self isolating, coughing and having the symptoms.

I go to the shops and all the shelves are empty, there is little eggs, milk, bread and pasta or toilet roll. People are preparing to self isolate at home. There is no doubt this is a highly contagious disease.

Then the thoughts begin. What will it do to me? What will this virus do to my family? Will people I know with breathing conditions be ok? This is a virus with no cure. These are crazy times.

Now the schools are to close and rumours are the UK will go into lockdown. It is beginning to get a strange vibe of like what the end of the world must feel like. The whole world is going through the same.

Everyone has suddenly become equal. Not one person is safe from this virus.

I entered a shop this morning and a woman approached and stopped 5 foot from me. She waited for me to move. She didnt pass or come near and I knew why. A man entered the shop and I waited for him to go down another aisle. No one feels safe and people are staying away from others. It is the right choice. We must stop this virus in its tracks.

Nobody knows what will happen next. It is worrying times in the world. It is true that the majority will get through this virus fine but as I look around I wonder how many people wont? How many people that I know will suffer with this

May we prevent this disease from spreading and reduce its devastation to a minimal…may we all do our bit to help fight it…

Just before dawn….

My favourite time of the day is the night sky just before the dawn before the sun begins to rise, there is planets and stars flickering in the skies before my very own eyes.

Its my favourite time of the day, enjoying the beauty from afar of the beautiful morning star.

Here before the dawn is where I enjoy the peace of the world, where angels dance, and there is a beautiful twilight romance

It is beautiful, peaceful and tranquil and paradise from the skies. I bask in such peace and wonder when the world has not yet woken, people have not yet opened up their eyes.

Silence and peace and beauty of nature are here for all to see, here is a glorious time to be awake, beauty of the day before dawn will always be the favourite time of the day to me.

This is a time most people of this world miss. I find this time spiritual and enchanting and peaceful.
It is a beautiful time just before dawn, where peace reigns before a new day is born.

The early morning starlight sky before the sunrise, is the most beautiful part of the day in my eyes.

I look up at the starlight sky of the morning is what I will miss of this world one day.
When I am gone from this beautiful world and can no longer stay. But I shall cross the night skies of the heavens above and flicker away

There are many paradises to be seen within this world and may most people awake to see this beautiful sight, when the morning is here but it is still the night, when the moon hangs in the early morning, giving the last of its beautiful moonlight.

It is the most beautiful in the early morning Autumn sky, when it is my favourite time of the year, enjoying the moon and the stars way up high, enjoying the morning star lighting up my eye

The beautiful part of the day just before dawn, the beauty and peace of the world before a new day is born….

Within darkness….

In life is everything we do and everything we work for pointless if we dont have someone to share it with?

Is it all meaningful and special without someone to experience it with us and to enjoy it with us and be proud in the eyes of others

One day who will appreciate our work and our time and effort if there is no one to remember us and who we was and what we did

Through having people with us and around us is this the best way to immortalise ourselves?

What becomes of the lonely? Those who give life their everything but without a special someone ended with nothing.

It can be so lonely in a room of people. Sometimes you feel so invisible and no one would notice if you left. Sometimes you feel you dont matter at all.

Sometimes it is hard to escape the darkness of our minds. When we get lost and search frantically for a light to lead us out into where we are free.

Sometimes we are our own worse enemies and greatest critics. Where we turn against ourselves and become negative.

Where the horrible words of others throughout our lives come back to haunt us and destroy our mind and happiness.

I sometimes feel like I am in deep water, I am going under the water often and struggling to return to the surface for air and I get air sometimes but I keep going back under and the fight continues to stay above the surface.

I search for my purpose and I often can never find it. I search for who I want to be but a battle of who I want to be and what I should be takes place.

Once the negative gets a grip on you it keeps coming back again and again and again and doesnt chose when or where it just happens.

A battle takes place between my positives and my negatives. But as if with life the positive vibes only come from me but the negatives often are said by others towards me over the years and this is heard again by me in their voice in my mind.

I gaze in the mirror and remember the cruel words of others. I sometimes hate the person staring back at me because of them words. Because of how they made me feel.

I compare myself to others and wonder why I am not like them. I envy others and face shame and embarrassment of myself.

I sometimes focus on my flaws. They become magnified and I begin to wish I had never been born

Then I sometimes feel so trapped in life and how people see me and things I have said and done wrong and my behaviour at times and how I feel out of place or with no place and I just wish I could end it all and leave this life

But it is these demons which motivate me on to achieve my dreams while I can and achieve all I can while I can.

Life for some can be so tough and our minds can be such a dark place to play.

I win many battles against my mind but I often wonder if one day – I will lose the war – but it is a war I shall be victorious….

A Runcorn Ghost….

It was a late September night in 2018 when this event took place. It lasted only seconds but was very strange.

It was on Boston Avenue where it happened where I arrived at a house late on. It was now dark and about 11pm.

The street is quite often empty and you see little people around late at night despite its quite busy location of a daytime on a busy road.

I went to the house and then returned to get something out of the boot. As I approached the boot – the driveway was next to the public footpath next to the road outside the house. The boot faced parked on the drive towards the path and road.

This is when I seen coming towards me a young girl. It was dark and didnt take too much notice of her. But I knew it was a girl from her size roughly of a teenage girl with long hair. I remember she wore earphones and her face was shadowed out. She was about 7 foot away from me.

But apart from that I never looked or took any notice other than the quick glance at her as I turned to the boot with my back now to the road and the path. Because usually of a day or early evening you see dogwalkers and young people on the paths walking along.

I decided to wait until she passed until I opened the boot. I turned and looked around again quick – but there was absolutely nobody there. She had completely vanished….

I looked up and down the road but there was no girl….

She couldnt of gone into another house because her location was too close to me to go into someone elses drive and I would of seen her go down the drive as the fences are low between the houses. But there was absolutely no one about. She had simply dissapeared…

I can still remember it clearly as she came down the path towards me. I can see her shape and hair and length. I remember how the streetlamp lit up around her but her face and most of her front was shadowed out in darkness as Boston Avenue is quite a dark place anyway at night.

But what I do remember since this event which lasted about 5 seconds. From when I first seen her, turned my back and then turned back again and she had vanished – what I remember which I didnt notice at the time – is she had no footsteps.

She literally just came down the path, silently and dissapeared….

I dont know whether anyone else has ever witnessed anything in this area but to me it actually happened and was very strange as I know she couldnt of gone in another house or crossed the road or passed me out of sight within 5 seconds….

I would love to hear from others who have experienced anything strange…

The Others…

This is a true story of what happened to my nana in 2013 and the ghost which plagued her last few months.

Emily was a grand lady. She was 98 years old and had lived a long and happy life. She had 9 children, vast amounts of grandchildren and many great grandchildren. She had lived a long and beautiful life in a happy that she had lived in for 78 years. But all that was about to change….

It began one autumn morning when Emily sat to rest in a chair overlooking the whole living room. She sat and enjoyed the peace. But then she was disturbed…

According to my nana Emily a man entered the room and went into the living room and looked in the mirror….and a woman followed…. Dressed in all black wearing a black veil…. Like she had just been to a funeral…. And sat in my grandmother’s favourite chair… Her face in a fixed gaze… Motionless….

Who was these two strange people my grandmother had been witness to? Within a minute they faded away into thin air…..

The days passed by and there was no strange incidents until a few days later when Emily was sat in her chair in the living room she was watching television when she seen something out of the corner of her eye. She turned to look… Floating across the room towards Emily was – her mother.

Emilys mother had been dead at least 30 years and here she was as a young woman approaching my nana across the living room. Emily recognized the green dress she wore well… The phantom turned and headed through the hall door and vanished. My nana was so convinced she seen her that she stood up and went after her. Shouting her name in a friendly gentle manner as anyone would to their mother… But she was gone… Vanished….

Then events took a deeper and darker turn….

My nana (Emily) was sat in her chair when suddenly a boy appeared….smiling…. And being playful gazing at my nana. There was activity about suddenly of other people. A woman was looking around and a little dog was sniffing about the room as if he had always been there.

But then the atmosphere changed. According to my nana the boys face became fear and the woman dissapeared and a man entered and the child ran chased by the man and they all vanished….

These people then became an ongoing presence in my nana Emilys life.

My aunt Judy went to check on my nana due to these stories circulating amongst the members of the family. But she was nowhere to be found. My aunty searched the house and came lastly to a locked conservatory door… She opened in and there was Emily… Locked in. Emily claims the family locked her in and was looking her in there on the ‘mans’ orders.

What confused my aunty was how had my nana managed to lock herself in from the other side?

This man was an evil and aggressive presence. In the dead of night he was constantly shouting ‘put the light on’ aggressively to Emily leaving her with no sleep.

I went to visit my grandmother myself one day. I entered the hall and I could hear her talking to people. I went in and she was sat talking to someone on the couch. As soon as I entered it stopped and she talked to me instead normal as she always did and didn’t say a word to the person on the sofa. But as soon as I left to go the toilet…. I entered the hall and I heard her say ‘now where was we?… ‘ and the chat had begun again…. It hadn’t been forgotten about. This person hadn’t been forgotten about by my grandmother. It was almost as if they had waited patiently for me to leave…..sat on the sofa… Invisible and silent….

The next door neighbour to my nana Emily rang an aunty of mine that she could hear my nana Emily shouting one night through the wall so she went to investigate….

Emily claims that the boy had awoken my nana up asking for help from the man….then the man had appeared and a battle had begun between Emily and the man involving the boy….. Emily pulled on one arm of the boy and the man on the other…. A struggle took place…..Emily claims the man won and dragged the screaming boy ‘through the wall’. What concerned my aunty was… The carpet was all rucked up where Emilys feet had fought hard and dug deep against an opposing force…..

Things then got a little stranger…

Upon one of the men in my family going to visit Emily to see if she was OK he entered the kitchen… Here Emily had made three cups of tea… One for her, one for him and one for ‘the man’. He picked up the cup which was for ‘the man’ and poured it away down the sink. Then… He tells everyone convincingly…. The kitchen door slammed shut as if someone had slammed it in anger……

The man would often whisper at the end of the bed ‘we’re coming for you’ in a evil way.

I remember the last time I seen my grandmother. It was one Christmas eve. She stood at the bottom of the stairs agitated… Demanding the three people at the top come down at once…..

It was widely believed Emily had dimentia…. But these people… The man, the woman, the child and the dog were continuous up until she died…. The story and the characters and the appearances and descriptions of them never changed….

The future for you

I often look at you and think many things. Such as what will your life be like? What will you become? Will your life be filled with happiness and love? Who will you marry and will you be happy? What is written in the stars for you?

For you eras will end, dreams will end but new beginnings shall arise.

Challenges shall come and challenges shall be overcome. Each struggle shall bring you strength and wisdom.

I shall never forget the beautiful years of innocence I shared with you. How them eyes sparkled and how everything was wonder and how to me you are and was amazing.

These years have been some of the best years of my life and they will stay with me forever. You are as important as oxygen and light up my world like the sun.

I promise to always protect you and to die for you if I must. Afterall some things are so precious they are worth dying for.

When I am gone will you remember me fondly and wisely? May God grant me the honour of watching over you still.

May the world bless you with opportunity and greatness and wisdom. May you take all the chances you deserve.

Always remember to do whats right, so you won’t have to worry about consequences. May you always keep an inner peace which brings freedom.

May you grow to be old and grey. May you be surrounded by the love of many children and grandchildren.

May you find true love and may it last forever….