A broken heart

A few weeks ago I visited Prestatyn beach in North Wales. I go here quite often I find it quite relaxing especially around dinner time of an evening towards sunset. There are a few people about walking the dogs on a nice walk. Its quite reflective. 

But one evening I was greeted by the sounds of something I dont hear often or at all – a grown man crying his eyes out….

I sat on the steps overlooking the beach and the sea. Behind me was the car park. I sat gazing out to sea enjoying the sunset when I heard a noise behind me which alerted me. The sound of sobbing. I turned round and seen a man sat in his car. He had his hands over his eyes. At first I thought he was rubbing his eyes. I looked back out to sea again. Then I heard sobbing again. 

I turned round to see the man crying heavy. Tears ran down his face and he wiped them away. He gazed at his phone and burst into tears again. He wiped them away but the tears fell fast. 

I paused as it was one of them moments where I didn’t know what to do. Should I go and see if he is OK?  Or is that intruding on his grief? I decided to leave him to grieve alone. Im not one for sharing troubles so I decided not to interfere. 

He sat and looked round the place and his emotions settled for a minute. He checked his phone and once again began to sob. 

What could reduce a man to such tears?  I could tell this wasn’t an argument. This man had very recently suffered a tragic loss. As he was alone I assumed he had just lost his girlfriend/wife. He wasn’t an old man I would guess in his forties. He gazed round and cried again.

I wondered was this a special place for them over the years?  Had they strolled hand in hand together here over the years down the sea front along the promenade? Had nature been cruel and brought an end to an era?  He was now alone with just memories and pictures on his phone. 

I felt sorry for him. Here is everyone happy going about their lives unaware of the heartbreak people near by must be going through. I couldn’t imagine the heart ache he must be experiencing. I sat close by I tried to smile briefly if he looked my way. He was too wrapped up in sadness and memories. 

This went on for ten minutes. He started his car engine had a quick glance along the seafront sobbed again and left. I watched him drive away. Was this a final goodbye I wondered. A chapter in his life of coming here to such a sentimental place possibly had come to an end.  His world had fell apart. 

I hoped he was alright as he drove off. He probably was returning to an empty lonely house full of sadness,  pictures and memories. I couldn’t imagine going to bed alone to a cold mattress knowing that person should be there. His world clearly had fell apart and his soul forever tortured. 

So I sit and wonder while I am happy – how many people out there have suffered the same sadness and I gave them a thought. It goes to show we must enjoy our lives while we can.  

Perhaps places we go to us are nice and simple basic places but to others it could be a magical place with such memories to them and others. Places of love and happiness and sentiment. I have special places to me that hold meaning. 

So if you have a special someone and a special place make the most of it. Tell them often you love them and enjoy your magical place together for times goes by on the blink of an eye… 

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The death penalty

“If you must break the law do it to seize power,  in all other cases – observe it” – Julius Cesar. 

This is a topic which is often raised with those for it and those against.  Into the subject goes morality and ethics. Should the death penalty be allowed?  Should it be re-instated?  Is there warrant for it? 
In my own personal opinion I believe there is a warrant for it.  I often hear on the radio of murders and serial killers and horrific crimes and its very upsetting.  Often these sick crimes are rewarded with hardly any kind of a punishment.  How is prison a punishment in these days?  They get to stay safe indoors in nice enough conditions and get priviledges and some even get computers. Why are these people being given anything?  They should be made to exist in the worse of conditions. 

Once I visited Beaumaris jail on the isle of Anglesey.  This was a jail in the Victorian times and is now a tourist attraction.  As soon as I walked in I could feel the tight suffocating atmosphere. I could instantly tell suffering had took place here for any crimes.  The rooms were small and some with no windows. The inmates had to work hard just for their breakfast.  They were punished hard if stepped out of line.  How have prisons changed so much that inmates are now seen having fun and drinking and mobile phones sneaked in unnoticed.  What kind of places have prisons become where it is acceptable to be in and not too much hardship?  Where the life is OK. Prisons should be feared. They should be a place where human rights for murderers is hard to come by.  

Some will say its inhumane to execute them.  But where was their humanity and humane views when they took innocent lives?  These people are exempt from humanity.  They are not apart of it. 

They should be wiped out and took out of life so we don’t have to care for them. This will free up space in prisons with people of lesser crimes. This will save the tax payer paying to keep them and the money can be put towards a good thing instead of useless to society monsters.  

People say ‘oh killing them is an easy way out for them’ but I dont care.  I dont care about that I want them gone and no longer a threat to anyone and not allowed to live. They take up space and time and money. If I murdered someone I would expect to lose my life and why not?  

If someone had murdered someone close to me I dont see jail as justice not in the modern day.  When has society become so weak it is scared to punish such evil? What kind of society do we live in where murderers can still have their life and live it out in an OK environment protected by laws and human rights after they took a life away? 

Surely human rights shouldnt apply to these people.  They opted out when they disrespected the human rights of others. 

Recently it was on the radio of a man who killed a man in an unprovoked attack and punched him.  He died and the man who killed him got 6 years in jail.  How is 6 years justice for the victims family??  The victim got an eternal sentence.  His life was ended!  

He faces a small punishment then walks back into civilization to enjoy his life and see friends and family etc.  Whereas his. Victim is gone forever… He has murdered someone.  What if he does it again? 

I know in certain situations we must be careful incase there isn’t much evidence but one concrete evidence where is the issue with putting monsters down? Imagine if one of these people escaped.. 

Some will argue that these people can be rehabilitated and helped but for what purpose?  They can never be released and allowed back into society.  They can never be allowed a normal life.  What is the point in wasting resources on these people?  They knew what they were doing when they broke the law.  So if you cant do the time dont do the crime.  I understand rapists and thieves etc should be given second chances etc but murderers especially cold brutal murderers should be put to sleep.  Im not refering to accidental murder as in manslaughter etc because that is just unfortunate.  There are situations where you might accidentally kill someone etc and thats fair enough its unfortunate but intended murder is evil.  Child murderers are evil etc why are they allowed to continue?  The yorkshire ripper for example costs the British taxpayer alot of money a year to house him etc why bother?  He cant be free. Can the money not be put to a more useful cause?  

Society needs to be stricter on those who operate outside its core.  Outside the mainstream of society which operates nice behaviour and compassion.  Why should nice people be put at risk?  

Perhaps knowing you will die too will make murderers think twice.  Everyone knows murder is wrong.  The only regret some of these murderers have is being caught.

But we all have our own opinions on this naturally.  Mine is to keep society such as our children truly safe…

Fifty shades darker

Recently the fifty shades Darker film was released the second one of the saga and as usual it was highly documented and anticipated by many. I imagine it will have many people going to watch it mainly girls. 

But I cannot understand the interest in this film at all. Christian Grey is such an overpowering dominant character and I cant understand why any woman would want a man like this! He is not just dominant in a sexual way but in her whole life and every part of it. How can a man like this be appealing? He buys her phones and cars and even the company he works for without telling her. He has complete control of her life. Surely this guy should be locked away? He is a dominant possessive control freak who surely is so overpowering that no one would really want to experience it and be scared if they did in real life.

As with Edward Cullen in Twilight he doesnt have a girlfriend and doesnt want one until one particular girl comes along and changes all that. She is a ‘special one’ who has a dramatic effect on him. I believe this is the subconcious desire of girls to feel special to a man and be the only one special to him. One who despite his danger can never hurt them out of love. Would a woman really love a man so dominating? He is smothering and controlling. Despite the belief that he is good looking surely that doesnt excuse his crazy psychology. 

In fact the two films Twilight and fifty shades of Grey are very similar and mirror each other almost entirely. 

In the film there is a scene where Christian Grey is driving a helicopter which then plummets due to a problem and he is about to crash. We never see him crash. Then hes on the news missing. But there is no worry and no mystery for he turns up two minutes later pretending to stumble about but no injuries and is completely fine. It is a pointless scene and not worth even showing in the film. It holds no relevance and no emotional connection at all. Contains no worry and no mystery and drama or suspense. 

The acting in the film is also just average. Jamie Dornan keeps going from Irish accent then back to American and back to Irish again. He seems more Spector from the Fall tv series although the two characters he plays are not worlds apart and very similar mindsets.

The female character Anastasia to me is very boring and has no real part to play apart from being preyed upon by a stalker. She holds no real personality of her own and surely is unrelatable. As female characters go she is incredibly weak. She holds no strength or depth at all. 

Overall my favourite part of the film was the coldplay song at the beginning thats about it. Apart from that the film was made up of bringing out sexual provocative thoughts and instincts and the rest was teenage girl fantasy and a rubbish man overall and a stupid innocent girl who despite being abused by him in the first one returns for more from a man who is a sexual predator who has psychological childhood issues. 

Although people have their own sexual preferences thats fine and maybe the films touch upon a subconcious animal instinct and sexual desires and roles in primitive humans of dominant males which is brought to the surface in women. I also think the film is guilty of brainwashing people into believing it to be what most women want to be treated like which I dont believe to be true. 

My personal opinion: not worth watching unless you want cheap sex thrills.

My rating of the film – 2/5