Being shy 

Being shy can be one of the worse curses on a persons life especially towards adulthood. It is seen as kind of a cute thing in children but plagues the world of adults. It becames embarrassing and difficult and can be undealable at times. 

I was always shy as a child its not something I could combat easy. I didn’t make new friends easy because I didn’t like to approach people and always wondered what would I say etc and I suppose part of shyness is the fear of their reaction towards you. What if they dont like you?  What if they dont speak back? All the questions go through the mind. 

I never used to like walking into rooms that had a lot of people in them such as at family gatherings as I knew the attention would be on me and my face would go red. I wouldn’t know what to say etc. This was accepted in childhood but adulthood it can come across in a man as an entirely different thing. 

As I got older shyness came with me. Shyness was part of me. It became a nightmare for the boy-girl situation as I was too shy to speak to any girls I liked and if any girl spoke to me I would go red in the face and feel and probably look stupid. 

Shyness is a difficult situation to control. It can lead you to say and do the most stupid things when speaking to people and embarrass you further. Its so hard to combat. You can feel yourself going red in the face and then panic sets in within you. The fear of the chat with someone and the anxiety overtake you. The fight within yourself overcomes you and you say anything or do anything to try and hide it but make it worse and it spills out into your outer world for example if someone says hello you have to go that one step further just to try and show an image of composure to others by asking them a further question or doing something to distract attention from yourself. Example when I was young I think I pushed a friend etc and tried to deflect attention away from me onto him but just made me look stupid probably and strange. 

Being shy makes the real you suppressed and you cannot break a shell you are within. You just want to hide from the situation you find yourself in. You want to beamed up away from it and somewhere you feel safe. I spent many times wishing I could teleport to somewhere else. The feel of dread is a horrible feeling. 

Luckily I am not so shy these days. There are times when I go red in the face and suffer a little but usually these are throwbacks such as if I see someone from school I haven’t seen for years and sends me back into them times of shyness I once lived. 

Being shy can be a nightmare and so hard to overcome. It can lead to embarrassment and fear and strange events and actions you never wanted to do in first place. It can plague your life.

I feel sorry for people who are shy because I once lived it. May we all overcome shyness and be able to find composure and peace within and be ourselves. 

To those who we care for

To all the people I have been blessed to know.  

I am lucky to of been related to some amazing people and known friends who have been amazing people. Sadly I have never told them so. But as of lately we have been under attack by evil people. So in case anything happens to me I want to say thankyou for being in my life. It meant alot knowing you. You make me smile and be happy and is always good talking with you and thinking of you. You have entered my life in positive ways. You shall forever have my kindness and all the people I have known have my love. I care for you all. 

I am sorry to those who I have wronged, hurt or upset throughout my life,  I didn’t do it in malice, I would never wish any harm on you and hope I can be forgiven. Also to all those who have hurt me and upset me. I forgive you due to the nature was of pettyness and not important as life itself. 

Have you told your friends and family and those you care about how much they mean to you? Give them a big hug and never take them for granted. Make the most of everybody as much as you can. 

Smile at the people on the street,  for they are people who are here just like you, vulnerable and innocent and love life like you. Show kindness to all you meet for they are alive and healthy. Be good with work colleagues and helpful and make life pleasant for all if you can. Non of us are here forever. 

We are not here forever and this evil world we live at the moment has made our world more vulnerable and dangerous. Any of us at anytime could be taken away. We must not take anyone we know for granted. 

Have you made amends with those you have argued with over Petty arguments and squabbles?  Have you seeked forgiveness or said sorry to those where you should of?  Life is too short and too fragile. 

So make all them you know and care for that you are happy they are in your life. Tell them what they mean to you and that you happy to know them. 

Make most of the beautiful nature and true world which surrounds you. Bask in the beauty of sun,  relax in the sounds of raindrops on your window, be thankful for the fear of thunder and for the sharp beauty and romance of the cold of winter. 

Send this to all your friends and family and spread the word of love. 

May we all be blessed with a long and peaceful life. 

London bridge attack

Yet again evil strikes our streets. How can such evil still be allowed to walk our streets free? How many more evil eyes and hearts wander amongst us? Where will be next? We need action and we need it now. 

This is another disgusting act of evil. Running people over in a van, walking into bars and restaurants and stabbing innocent people of which one person in the face is evil beyond words. Seven people have died innocently. How can anyone believe this is right?  The government is failing to protect the people of this country. 

No matter how many cobra meetings the government have thats not enough. We need action. Get the soldiers in and remove this evil from our streets immediately. This is a war we are facing here against brutal evil. We must act quick before more lives are lost before more terror happens. Anyone who is a terror suspect remove them. You dont get a label like that for no reason. 

When will the government stop being so weak?  They are failing the british people. They are not keeping them safe. They are scared to act in case it upsets people. But what about the griefing parents of Manchester?  The griefing relatives of London?  What about their hurt and pain and loss?  What about the future relatives pain and upset when future attacks happen?  The government needs to stop being so weak. These people, this evil is here not to divide us but kill us. 

Our grandparents didn’t fight for this. This isn’t a world they risked all for. Many British hearts didn’t die for us to live in fear. They fought for us to be free. For us to walk the streets of anywhere in the UK without fear. Honour their memory and dont let their sacrifice and fight be in vain. We must act now and save more lives. Now is the time to stop this. Before its too late. Stop it immediately. Protect our island – whatever the cost may be. 

Ancient London bridge a massive symbol of London and its history has been infiltrated by evil once again. Mother England is once again weeping. May British hearts be strong. May they stay safe and free. May the government bring an end to this evil. May love once again be the greatest of all commandments.

Mother England demands it,  our English ancestors cry for it – stop the evil amongst us, stop the terror amongst us,  end the terror. Rule Britannia

May the victims rest in peace… 

The laws of Humanity

  1. Never hurt another human
  2. Put your mankind first
  3. Always show kindness to others
  4. Always treat everybody equal to yourself
  5. Never impose your beliefs on someone violently
  6. Never seek to destroy your race of man,  but help better and further your mankind
  7. Always do things for the good of mankind
  8. If you spread love,  others shall feel it and spread it also,  and the world shall become love
  9. Embrace the art of smiling,  for a smile can make someone elses day
  10. Help others in need
  11. Just because someone maybe wrongs you – doesn’t mean you have to wrong them in return
  12. Within your heart show mercy and forgiveness as much as you can
  13. Seek peace at all avenues in your life and help others to discover peace
  14. Never seek vengeance – for it is a vicious circle
  15. Always be charitable. There is beauty within charity
  16. Always care for nature – because you are nature
  17. Look after the creatures which exist within your life – as this is their world too
  18. Grant Amnesty to all,  for the past cannot be changed,  its the future that can be altered
  19. Never take people for granted
  20. Embrace the laws of nature

Olivia Campbell

It has been confirmed that Olivia Campbell has sadly passed away. When we all heard she was missing on the news it was so upsetting. We all wanted and prayed for her to be safe. 

Most of us never knew Olivia,  but when we knew she was missing we felt like we did. We connected with the grief and worry of her parents. She became one of our own. She became Englands angel.

How can such evil do this to anyone? How can anyone want to harm children? There is nothing more cowardly than an attack on the innocent. 

She was just a 15 year old girl, like any other. She had no wish to hurt anyone so why did you want to hurt her? She had her whole life ahead of her.  People should be allowed to go to a concert and come home safe. 

Social media from first thing in the morning filled with her beauty. We all was worried and wanted her safe. She became the heart of the nation. 

I shall pray for the strength for her parents. No one deserves their pain. No one deserves to suffer this grief. They have the support of us all. All English hearts have been broken. 

I shall pray for all the families of the victims. May the victims be blessed by God in heaven. May they be at peace with him. 

So lets honour Olivia and her memory,  lets respect her. Lets send all our love to her parents,  lets send all our love to all the parents of all the victims. We are with you. 

Taken from the world by evil,  but forever shrouded now by the world in love. Olivia shall never be forgotten. She will be remembered forever by us all. 

So may the beautiful angel Olivia Campbell be one of the angels in the beautiful heavens. 

May she rest in peace. 

The Manchester attack

How dare such evil walk our streets!! Our grandparents didn’t risk all for this. They didn’t fight and many die for us to leave in fear and not free. They fought for their grandchildren live free without fear. They fought for the streets to be safe. Imagine if many of them lost eyes could see us now. 

We cannot allow our children to grow up and be raised in such a dangerous world. In such a dangerous country where no one is safe. Where no one is free. We need act now!!  We need eradicate this evil from our streets whatever the cost may be. 

Our government is just sat around waiting. As I said after Westminster act now and we cannot afford to sit about and wait for more lives to be lost in the future. The Manchester attack was an attack on children!  What kind of evil does this? What kind of people??  We need to act now to save our children!  To protect them and the lives of many!!  Now is the time for action! 

We need a powerful leader,  a powerful government! We need someone who has support of all the British and humanity to stop these people whoever they are!!  We need eradicate them from this land and the world. Whoever they are!  We shall find them!!  We shall stop them!  We shall return the whole world to freedom!  To humanity!!  May the people uprise,  may love conquer all. May freedom and humanity win!!  

We cannot look into the eyes of our children in the future and see fear!!  We need make sure the future for them is safe and secure and happy without fear. The whole world deserves this. Children deserve this. Children are the future. Generations who can change the world. Protect your beautiful children!  We must act now!! 

We cannot let our grandparents efforts and the war deads efforts be in vain!! They fought for our freedom!! Now we must fight for that of our childrens and future generations!  

May the victims R. I. P and may the missing be found safe. I pray for such an outcome. 

May humanity and love win through! 

This is England

When people talk of England the immediate image that comes to mind is London, of Big Ben and the houses of Parliament and red buses. But there is so much more to England than this as I have recently found out. 

Amongst the busy times of life where we all work and watch tele and time passes by there is another part of England which exists which at times gets forgotten about by many – the beautiful English countryside. 

Recently I went to the lake district and was amazed by the beauty I saw an hour and a half away from where I live. There was lakes and mountains and fields as far as the eye could see. There was beautiful country roads passing into the distance through the mountains which spiral on into the distance what seems like forever. It was beautiful and breath taking. The long and winding roads heading to the distance as I passed on the country roads. 

Here was peace and beauty and nature. Here was the recharging energies of nature before me. This was a long world away from the big cities. This was the heart of England. The English countryside.

This is a picture I took at Wastwater lake. The beauty was breath taking and refreshing. I have never seen such beauty in England not natural beauty like this. The lake district certainly is the heart of England and there surely is no place else like the unique beauty of the English country. The whole British isles has splendid natural wonders and England possesses one of them diamonds. Where the mountain rivers flow, and the mountains are green and splendid. Here the forests are green and refreshing and the fields go long into the horizon. The waters are cold yet beautiful. 

I know all countries have natural wonder and natural beauty but this beauty is typically English. A beautiful sight of rural England. This is the real England before me and the English truth of beauty. 

While flowing along the long lonely country roads through the lakes and mountains I was stopped because of Bulls on the road. They didn’t care as this was their territory and their world. They were calm and placid and continued on the path they were taking over the fields. There was sheep scattered everywhere on the Hills and mountains and I was right in the midst of nature. It was beautiful. 
As the sun sneaks out from under a cloud and shows himself he casts his light onto the craggs and mountains way up high creating beauty. I could sit here all day and bask in nature. The joys are so much more rewarding. The view much more pleasing to the eyes and mind. 

Nature is my most favourite thing in the world. Nature is the natural world which we came from and which is the truth of life. I would hate to think of a day where there is no nature and all houses. It would be a horrible world. May mankind respect nature forever. We was born by the will of nature and in death we shall return to beautiful nature.

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And I cant help but think – did those feet in ancient times walk upon Englands mountains green?

So in my own personal opinion I would choose the country over the cities for beauty and to spend time. With the beautiful little villages and the fresh air for me it is not even a hard choice. Nature is immense and wonderful. 

In my eyes the lake district certainly is the heart of England. 

Oh England I am in your garden breathing in your wonderful nature…