Bullying hurts

In all walks of life and in all ages bullying exists. We all know someone or have experienced ourselves evidence of bullying. Bullying hurts them who are the victims deeper than the bully will ever know. 

In my own experience of bullying it was a year which caught me alone. I was 11 years old and it was my first year of my new school. I hardly knew anyone at all and didn’t make friends easy because I was shy. 

Unfortunately I became the victim of a series of bullying for almost a year. This was extremely difficult for me as a young boy as the two people who bullied me were girls. I dont know why they chose me and I dont know what they wanted. I think had I been bullied by two boys it would be different as I could of handled it better. If needs be by combat to sort it out and draw a line of respect. But when its two girls that option is not there. I didn’t know what to do or how to handle it. All I could do was take the abuse and suffer it and carry on. The name calling and the insults really hurt more than physical bullying. It gets to the soul and emotion and upsets you more. Physical wounds will heal but emotion and psychological wounds are permanently damaged. 

Whenever I had to walk past them they would block me with their legs if they were sat down and once or twice one kicked me. Another time they blocked me in a coridoor and showered me with insults and anger. The whispering about you and laughing with others looking at you and the turning of people against you is sore. They say sticks and stones may break my bones but words can never hurt me but trust me they do. Sticks and stones hurt your bones but words harm the heart and soul. Words can bring a person to their knees and break hearts. 

I dont know if at the time they knew they were bullying me etc and realized it and have probably long since forgot about it but for me it scarred me and I have took it from that time with me my whole entire life and will come with me the memories to my grave. 

I was once sat on the stairs at home sad re-living the words one evening after seeing them. My mum asked if I was ok because I looked sad and I said I was fine. I never told anyone and kept it to myself. There was nothing no one could of done. Telling the teacher would be pointless as it would spread my ridicule and embarrassment and humiliation further. I suffered and I suffered alone in silence. What is a boy supposed to do against two girls?  

It made me insecure and feel ugly, weak and pathetic and had no confidence in myself. I felt like nothing and just terrible and lived in fright of going school. The bullying wasn’t always happening. It wasn’t relentless but I think a big part of bullying is the dread you feel of knowing you have to face them and when you see them in school your heart sinks. 

I am just glad that when I was 11 the internet basically didn’t exist. Had I been on facebook etc I think they would of cyber bullied me. That would of infiltrated my house. Home during this time was my safe haven where I felt secure. 

Anyway something in their friendship must of changed as the bullying one day just stopped and over time I forgave one of them as I think secretly she had fancied me and became nice to me over the years but the other I shall never forgive. She was the ring leader and the ruthless one. Even at times when I seen her over the years I remember that dread feeling. The upset I had because of her and the damage she had done to me. But I know now as the person I am today that now I would eat them for breakfast as I am much stronger now. 

It made me insecure and anxious and shy of people and at such a young age for a boy when I should of been mixing with girls and learning about the opposite gender it made me shy away. It made me panic incase it happened again and had no confidence in myself and a belief girls wouldn’t like me. 

I suppose maybe they didn’t know they were bullying me or torturing me the way they did and victimising me. I know my experience was probably minimal and people go through alot worse and I cant imagine what people must go through. What I went through was more than enough and I suppose it could of been worse but it was enough to damage me. Life can be cruel and people can be changed forever through bullying. 

When you live through bullying and come out the other side you are stronger and smart and more aware. You must never let them win. There was times they nearly broke me. But in fact they made me. They made me the person I am today. 

I think Bullys are usually insecure of themselves and reflecting attention away from their own downfalls and weaknesses. I think cyber bullys are cowards who need to grow up and discover true emotion and experience life and people and hurt and love. They need be secure in themselves. 

So I thank my bullys for making me stronger and smarter with a deeper soul. They made me the man I am today. 

Sadly I think bullying willl always exist and victimisation etc but if you are in these situations then fight on and smile through and be true to yourself and walk on. For there will be a brighter day. Without suffering we will never know happiness when we find it. 

Also if you are tormenting or teasing someone consistantly remember it might be a bit of fun to you which soon will be forgotten but to the victim it is something they won’t forget and carry the sadness, anger, upset, worry and torture with them for the rest of their life and have been scarred by your actions. 

I have never told anyone this of that year but writing this blog has helped lift a weight off my soul and helped me bring closure… 

A broken heart

A few weeks ago I visited Prestatyn beach in North Wales. I go here quite often I find it quite relaxing especially around dinner time of an evening towards sunset. There are a few people about walking the dogs on a nice walk. Its quite reflective. 

But one evening I was greeted by the sounds of something I dont hear often or at all – a grown man crying his eyes out….

I sat on the steps overlooking the beach and the sea. Behind me was the car park. I sat gazing out to sea enjoying the sunset when I heard a noise behind me which alerted me. The sound of sobbing. I turned round and seen a man sat in his car. He had his hands over his eyes. At first I thought he was rubbing his eyes. I looked back out to sea again. Then I heard sobbing again. 

I turned round to see the man crying heavy. Tears ran down his face and he wiped them away. He gazed at his phone and burst into tears again. He wiped them away but the tears fell fast. 

I paused as it was one of them moments where I didn’t know what to do. Should I go and see if he is OK?  Or is that intruding on his grief? I decided to leave him to grieve alone. Im not one for sharing troubles so I decided not to interfere. 

He sat and looked round the place and his emotions settled for a minute. He checked his phone and once again began to sob. 

What could reduce a man to such tears?  I could tell this wasn’t an argument. This man had very recently suffered a tragic loss. As he was alone I assumed he had just lost his girlfriend/wife. He wasn’t an old man I would guess in his forties. He gazed round and cried again.

I wondered was this a special place for them over the years?  Had they strolled hand in hand together here over the years down the sea front along the promenade? Had nature been cruel and brought an end to an era?  He was now alone with just memories and pictures on his phone. 

I felt sorry for him. Here is everyone happy going about their lives unaware of the heartbreak people near by must be going through. I couldn’t imagine the heart ache he must be experiencing. I sat close by I tried to smile briefly if he looked my way. He was too wrapped up in sadness and memories. 

This went on for ten minutes. He started his car engine had a quick glance along the seafront sobbed again and left. I watched him drive away. Was this a final goodbye I wondered. A chapter in his life of coming here to such a sentimental place possibly had come to an end.  His world had fell apart. 

I hoped he was alright as he drove off. He probably was returning to an empty lonely house full of sadness,  pictures and memories. I couldn’t imagine going to bed alone to a cold mattress knowing that person should be there. His world clearly had fell apart and his soul forever tortured. 

So I sit and wonder while I am happy – how many people out there have suffered the same sadness and I gave them a thought. It goes to show we must enjoy our lives while we can.  

Perhaps places we go to us are nice and simple basic places but to others it could be a magical place with such memories to them and others. Places of love and happiness and sentiment. I have special places to me that hold meaning. 

So if you have a special someone and a special place make the most of it. Tell them often you love them and enjoy your magical place together for times goes by on the blink of an eye… 

Ukraine and the EU

Ukraine,  a massive beautiful country based in eastern Europe on the coast of the black sea. Ukraine possesses beautiful cities such as Kiev and Lviv. Everyone I know who has been to Ukraine tells me of how much of a beautiful place it is and how Kiev is a wonderful city. Ukraine has a deep rich history and has a unique culture. There is lots to see is Ukraine and has many wonders!  

This country has had to much bad publicity over the years!  Now is the time for good publicity!  Now is the time to see the beauty of Ukraine!  The winners of the Eurovision song contest and a land of beautiful landmarks and music!  

http://www.traveltoukraine.org/mustsee.htm

The Carpathian moutains are a true beauty of nature! Ukraine has a mix of beautiful cities and beautiful nature and beautiful people. There is the beautiful St Sophias cathedral in Kiev a magnificent site for everyone to witness. 

In Ukraine the spring onwards has beautiful warm weather all through summer and come the autumn has the romance of beautiful snowfall and a warm cosey atmosphere. It is a hidden treasure of Europe!! 

This is a country that has suffered so deeply in history. Yet recently it wished to join the EU but for trouble to once again get in the way. 
This country fought for independence from the soviet union and won. Yet Russia has interfered in their quest to join the EU and damaged their chances by sending the country into a civil war. 

This country should be allowed to join the EU!  The Ukraine is an independent democratic nation which the people should be allowed to decide its course. There should be no interference from other nations. 

The people of Ukraine are no better or worse than the rest of us. They should not be forgotten about!  They should be allowed visa free travel into Europe and to see the world and have the same work and living oppurtunities and freedom of movement oppurtunity as the rest of Europe!  

I believe tariff free trade would benefit this country greatly and help it grow and prosper into the nation it deserves to be. I believe the people of Ukraine have a lot to offer Europe. So lets help these people to have the same rights as others!! 

Let this beautiful independant country be given the same chance as the rest of the countries in the EU!!  Allow this nation to be given a chance to prosper and grow with the same EU deals as the rest of Europe!!

The Ukraine has been trodden on so much in history by Russians trying to starve them to death in the 1930s and worse by Hitler’s Germany. These people deserve a chance to live free on the same dream and path as the rest of Europe. How can we let these people be trapped between the EU and Russia?  How can we not hear their voices?  These people deserve to have their rights heard and their human rights respected. The people deserve to be free of a poverty they have been made to suffer. 

I know western Ukraine supports Europe and Eastern Ukraine more Russia but why cant there be a deal with both?  Ukraine is independant enough to make its own deals and associations. Why should politics be allowed to get in the way of humanity?

Now is the time for Ukraine to grow and prosper and be a great nation!  Now is the time for Ukraine to have a good economy and the people living happily!! Now is the time for Ukraine to uprise and be great once again!!  Now is the time for Ukraine stand together in the European community side by side living the same as all Europe! 

So if you believe in the will of people and not to let them be ignored then support Ukraine!  Let the people decide! Let them be truly Europe!! Let the beauty of Ukraine be seen and felt by us all in Europe and let them be treated like true Europeans!! 

Second EU Referendum

Recently I have become aware of how unhappy this country has become,  how divided we have become due to the EU referendum. I am calling for a second referendum. Please read on.. 

Last time both campaigns were weak and no one knew the true facts. The leave campaign spun just good positives and hid away bad negatives which have since come forward making the leave vote look a disaster. 

The remain campaign was so weak it stood no chance. In my eyes David Cameron did very little. He made no effort to convince people. He showed no real facts of the doom of leaving and going to an EU meeting for reforms on behalf of the British people who wanted reforms he came back with a blank piece of paper basically dissapointing many.  This sealed his fate before the EU referendum ballot papers had even been looked at by the British. 

I understand the leave campaigns vote. We want tighter border controls. This isn’t aimed at good people wishing to come here to work. This isn’t aimed at students. We welcome you!  We want you here!  It is aimed at the minority who wish to abuse our benefit system. At them who come here for bad reasons and many do. We want to filter them out. The EU wasn’t allowing. But this isn’t a good enough reason abandon the EU and punish the whole UK.  To me it was a protest against the EU laws. I spoke to many people who have said ‘I voted leave – but I didn’t seriously think we would’ therefore perhaps it wasn’t never a true intention of many and more of a protest etc. 

I also understand the remain vote.  We want our EU workers here. We want our european neighbours to visit and work and study. We need you!  We want our visits to european destinations in the sun also. We want our tariff free trade. We want freedom to go into europe also and enjoy the wonderful cities of europe. 

So now we are all aware of the true facts not dealt to us before hand – I call for a second referendum so the British can truly decide Britain’s fate aware with all the facts and not just one or two silly quotes. 

Peoples lives and livelyhoods depend on this. It must now be done again to save a nation from total ruin and collapse. We cannot allow a grudge between us and Europe. We dont want to be seen as ignorant. We are tolerant and welcome all who wish to do good here. 

Many people have foreign girlfriends/boyfriends and husband/wifes and they have been left with a bad taste in their mouth. It is damaging relations. Peoples jobs and study programs are in jeopardy from this. The vote needs to be genuine and with honesty and no lies spun! We dont want to alienate our EU nationals and other nationalities who live here. We dont want to push our tourism away either. This is a proud nation who welcomes all! 

People say ‘oh they won’t give us a second referendum’ well why not?  This is a country of the people!!  If we want one and have enough support they cant forbid us our right!  We want a second referendum! We need to save the country we are all so proud of!  This is our island we dont want it ruined!  We want to be a proud nation again. Lets make it right. Lets save Britain!

Non of us truly wish for Scotland to leave the UK either. This is the United Kingdom. They voted to stay in the UK and the EU. People are being alienated here and the nation is being divided into many sections. We want it to stay as it is – United!  So the government needs to grant us a second referendum!!  If they care for Britain and the British people they shall grant it. We need the support to put it to them!! 

So now we are all aware of the facts. Lets go and vote again!  Whatever the outcome is the finale of referendums. If we vote leave again we have left. If remain wins then we remain.  This will be the final outcome and we must all accept the outcome. Make it a strong campaign! Find the non voters and bring their vote!  Come on everyone your country needs you!  The future needs you!  The people need you! 

So we are all aware of the facts now and we want a second referendum and why not?  Lets save Britain! Lets have a second referendum!!  

The death penalty

“If you must break the law do it to seize power,  in all other cases – observe it” – Julius Cesar. 

This is a topic which is often raised with those for it and those against.  Into the subject goes morality and ethics. Should the death penalty be allowed?  Should it be re-instated?  Is there warrant for it? 
In my own personal opinion I believe there is a warrant for it.  I often hear on the radio of murders and serial killers and horrific crimes and its very upsetting.  Often these sick crimes are rewarded with hardly any kind of a punishment.  How is prison a punishment in these days?  They get to stay safe indoors in nice enough conditions and get priviledges and some even get computers. Why are these people being given anything?  They should be made to exist in the worse of conditions. 

Once I visited Beaumaris jail on the isle of Anglesey.  This was a jail in the Victorian times and is now a tourist attraction.  As soon as I walked in I could feel the tight suffocating atmosphere. I could instantly tell suffering had took place here for any crimes.  The rooms were small and some with no windows. The inmates had to work hard just for their breakfast.  They were punished hard if stepped out of line.  How have prisons changed so much that inmates are now seen having fun and drinking and mobile phones sneaked in unnoticed.  What kind of places have prisons become where it is acceptable to be in and not too much hardship?  Where the life is OK. Prisons should be feared. They should be a place where human rights for murderers is hard to come by.  

Some will say its inhumane to execute them.  But where was their humanity and humane views when they took innocent lives?  These people are exempt from humanity.  They are not apart of it. 

They should be wiped out and took out of life so we don’t have to care for them. This will free up space in prisons with people of lesser crimes. This will save the tax payer paying to keep them and the money can be put towards a good thing instead of useless to society monsters.  

People say ‘oh killing them is an easy way out for them’ but I dont care.  I dont care about that I want them gone and no longer a threat to anyone and not allowed to live. They take up space and time and money. If I murdered someone I would expect to lose my life and why not?  

If someone had murdered someone close to me I dont see jail as justice not in the modern day.  When has society become so weak it is scared to punish such evil? What kind of society do we live in where murderers can still have their life and live it out in an OK environment protected by laws and human rights after they took a life away? 

Surely human rights shouldnt apply to these people.  They opted out when they disrespected the human rights of others. 

Recently it was on the radio of a man who killed a man in an unprovoked attack and punched him.  He died and the man who killed him got 6 years in jail.  How is 6 years justice for the victims family??  The victim got an eternal sentence.  His life was ended!  

He faces a small punishment then walks back into civilization to enjoy his life and see friends and family etc.  Whereas his. Victim is gone forever… He has murdered someone.  What if he does it again? 

I know in certain situations we must be careful incase there isn’t much evidence but one concrete evidence where is the issue with putting monsters down? Imagine if one of these people escaped.. 

Some will argue that these people can be rehabilitated and helped but for what purpose?  They can never be released and allowed back into society.  They can never be allowed a normal life.  What is the point in wasting resources on these people?  They knew what they were doing when they broke the law.  So if you cant do the time dont do the crime.  I understand rapists and thieves etc should be given second chances etc but murderers especially cold brutal murderers should be put to sleep.  Im not refering to accidental murder as in manslaughter etc because that is just unfortunate.  There are situations where you might accidentally kill someone etc and thats fair enough its unfortunate but intended murder is evil.  Child murderers are evil etc why are they allowed to continue?  The yorkshire ripper for example costs the British taxpayer alot of money a year to house him etc why bother?  He cant be free. Can the money not be put to a more useful cause?  

Society needs to be stricter on those who operate outside its core.  Outside the mainstream of society which operates nice behaviour and compassion.  Why should nice people be put at risk?  

Perhaps knowing you will die too will make murderers think twice.  Everyone knows murder is wrong.  The only regret some of these murderers have is being caught.

But we all have our own opinions on this naturally.  Mine is to keep society such as our children truly safe…

Womens supremacy

All through time women have been supressed and told they are the lesser clever gender and second to man and this still happens in many societies to this very day. 

Whereas I believe women have a grander role to play in humanity and life and always have. 

Afterall how can a man be better than a woman? Although men dominate the world physically its surely women who dominate mentally and more powerfully in all aspects of life. Its women who are more powerful in nature and have power over men that a man could surely never possess. Women hold all the power especially in the mating game. 

It is women who nuture children into this world and brings us up to be the people we are.

It is women who gave us life and protect us and who we all run to as children. 

Women are superhuman compared to men. Women can adapt and change for example during pregnancy womens senses change and she possesses better smell and skin and hair and eyes. They can grow an entire person inside them which is a superb achievement and women have a higher tolerance of pain. 

When a man buys a house it is a woman who makes it a home. Whatever a man gives a woman she makes it better and grander. In my eyes women are super beings!! What a woman achieves in life such as creating a family bringing children into this world and raising them is far more of an achievement than any man could ever dream of!

In school it is women who often get better grades than men. Womens attention to detail and intuition is superior to a mans. 

So how can a man be superior to a woman? Although its a mans world is it really? For I think all the men in the world and developed and taught and created by the amazement of a woman who has made them become the men they are today. 

the creators of life, devoting more than anyone else, devotedness to being a mother and a wife
How can a man oppress and discriminate against women when the two most important people in his life his mother and wife belong to that gender? 

Women are not a possession or an object or a maid for a man, women are every mans world, you are your husbands soul mate for life

Oh the women of this world, thankyou so much, a world without you, has no beauty as such, you are creators of love and dreams, creators of family, honour be to you, glory and devotion you possess, although life is tough, you are priceless, dont ever believe your less

So I believe in equality and if equality didnt exist or couldnt exist surely women have a huge say in being the better and supreme of humanity because as the song goes..this is a mans world..but nothing without a woman or a girl…

The crazy world

I am so sick of the modern day crazy world! How can this madness of been allowed to happen? 

  • How can an idiot like Donald Trump been allowed to power? The guy (from what I know) couldnt run a bath let alone a country! He goes round shouting his big mouth off upsetting people. Wheres your diplomacy you mad moron? Wheres the politics in you?! It doesnt exist! You are embarrasing democracy! You ask if its nazi Germany then no! Hitler even didnt say stupid s**t about people! He had a brain and sadly a plan! You have no idea! You nothing but a fool. A situation and a mess waiting to happen for someone else to clear up!! You should resign now!
  • How can people compare Brexit and Trump? One voted away from a dictatorship the other voted for it! How could brexit of been allowed to happen? Has the British government totally lost its mind and lost contact with the British people? All governments care about is money money money and people just get in the way!! They dont care for people and the attitude is ‘if people die they die so what’ process! Governments are fooling people. People are people and humanity should come first but oh no of course not. Lets line the pockets of the rich first.
  • Since when has it been a good idea to fight evil with greater and more evil? This is proper madness! How can it ever be ok to blow up innocent people and children? How can western leaders sleep at night after ordering the deaths of children? Exchanging blow for blow will be like a long drawn out going the distance boxing match! How will we ever achieve amnesty unless someone decides to be the bigger and better person? 
  • How can you say your civilized more than anywhere else just because you have more dangerous weapons? If you was civilized surely you wouldnt ever use or need weapons. You would help make the lives of the people you seek to stop better. Love is stronger than hate! Why terrorise people and children? Why not help them instead? 
  • War is not an answer to hate and terror. Words and understanding and apologizes are the way forward not blowing them all up. 
  • Had their not been previous invasions then there would be no terror today. There was no need invade Iraq! Now the vacuum has opened and evil has began! People are angry as loved ones were killed by terror from all four corners of the world! This world needs love! Make this happen! Only a moron would blow people up!! This has  to end now!