My Rabbit friend

When I was 14 I made a new friend -I bought a pet Rabbit. 

When I went into the pet shop I seen a hutch containing all rabbits in the middle of all the rabbits all snug and warm was the little one. He was all black and lovely. I decided I wanted him straight away. He was the one I chose. 

He was six weeks old when I got him and had just left his mother and brought to the store where I found him. I took him home in a box gently. 

I put him in his hutch in the garden and let him settle there alone for a while. It was filled with hay and a drink and food for him. I made sure his bedroom section was full of hay for comfort. 

A while later I went to pick him up out the hutch. He was wary of me and didn’t want me to pick him up. He went back and two trying to escape my hands a little frightened. But I eventually got hold of him and I held him to my chest. He instantly relaxed and I sat down holding him and a friendship began. I stroked him and he began to trust me. He began to believe in my care of him. He had beautiful shiny black hair and sticky up black ears. He was a beautiful animal to look at. 

As days went by we played alot. I would lie on the floor and he would run round my head standing on his back legs and making a funny little noise. He would sniff my head and lick my nose. He had a lovely pink round tongue. He was great and I loved him lots. I used to like looking into his eyes. I wondered what he made of the world. All beings which exist are fantastic beautiful beings either animal or human. So well designed and great and for purpose. 

I think people give rabbits negative opinions and views saying they are basic creatures,  stupid animals and vermin etc but trust me they are not in fact they are very clever smart creatures with a life and soul. Once I had to block him off from going behind the sofa as there was wires which would be dangerous if he bit them so he looked at the blocked path he once took and was working it out and decided to go under the cupboards and round. I was amazed he thought of that and crawled low under cupboards. 

When he used to run full speed from one end of the room to another he was basically just a blur it was impressive. He used to combine it with a sideways hop. He was amazing and I adored having him as my friend. People may think I sound silly or pathetic saying so but thats how it was. I think you can have spiritual friends in any forms. He was a source of comfort and could make you feel better when hes rubbing his face on you or licking your nose and fingers. Once I lay on the couch when he was little. He couldn’t get up the couch. He tried and tried. He went off in an all round circle and ran full speed and jumped onto the sofa and lay next to me with his feeting sticking out sidewards. I was amazed he did this and he had my respect. 

Watching him clean his nose and ears was a great viewing. He looked after himself well sitting up on his back legs and folding his ears round with his paws and clean them with his mouth. 

I used to put carrot sticks on his hutch door for him and he ripped them to pieces within half an hour. I remember thinking that he must be some kind of ‘lion rabbit’ as he tore it to shreads in such a quick time. He was great and lovely. His little nose sniffing away for more. 

I used to buy him a box of rabbit treats which were like chocolate drops the size of buttons. He loved them so much he used to stick his head in the box dropping all his sense of surrounding danger. He was safe with me anyway. 

If you have ever owned a pet or a rabbit there is a deep beautiful connection. There world is of innocence and they dont really possess any malice towards you. They love you truly in return and its a great emotional connection. There is no words said just a connection and mutual love of closeness. 

As time went on and me and him grew older I sadly didn’t have time to get him out as I was working and time became restricted. I remember once he made this frustrated sad grunt when I didn’t get him out and that will haunt me forever. He must of become fed up being in there. 

Sadly I think towards the end maybe I unintentionally disrespected his life by not getting him out as much as he must of felt sad and alone and trapped like a prisoner. That was his life and it deserved to be free. I loved him lots though and he was great. 

The day I found him dead was the saddest day of my life. I was 21 years old by then. He lay in his bed in a ball still and silent. He had gone forever. I held his cold lifeless body in my hands and cried my eyes out. I was so upset like I have never known. I loved him so much. He had lived for 7 years and had a long good life for a rabbit. I will always miss him. I have never truly got over that sadness. I have never returned to his grave in the garden as it upsets me. On his grave is a stone rabbit. He was buried in a shoebox with hay and carrots. I hope he forever rests there safe. Not only did he die and spell the end to his seven years of life but with it was the end of my childhood. He came into my life when I was a child and left me as a man. It was the end of two eras. I used to hope and listen to the sounds of him moving in his hutch after he died for a day or two. The sounds of him running and kicking about. The sound of him accidentally kicking his food bowl or drinking from his water bottle. The sound never came. 

I dreamt about him a day or two after he died. I dreamt he returned for one last play with me. He ran around and I held him and he licked my nose just like he used to do. Never once did he bite me. I felt this dream was a source of comfort as if he had come to say one last goodbye to me. We was in the garden and it was a nice sunny day. It was a beautiful day in the dream and it made me feel better. I hope it was him coming to say goodbye. 

The deep loving bond a human shares with animals can be almost unrivalled. There is a connection between the two species like no other connection. Whether you own a dog or a cat, horse or rabbit. The love is there of a little soul trusted to you who loves you in return. This is a solid unbreakable friendship and a loyal friendship. Animals possess many amazing qualities hard to find at times in humans which makes it all the more amazing. 

I hope wherever he is now I hope hes safe and I hope hes free and can wander many fields free of danger and have lots of grass and carrots to eat at his leisure. I hope hes happy and with other rabbits living a life of peace and happiness. 

I shall miss you forever my little rabbit friend and may you rest in peace for all eternity. 

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A bayview window

Weymouth – a beautiful seaside resort based on the south coast of England. It has beautiful blue waters and lots of great sites to see. I went to Weymouth when I was 13 and today at the age of 32 – I returned. 

I remembered alot of it quite well. When I was 13 years old me and my family stayed in a house overlooking the harbour right on the busy pedestrian street with people passing by. It was one of the of amazing old houses I had ever stayed in. It had three floors and had big rooms. The ground floor was a sitting room with books in it and a chair to gaze outwards and was a relaxation room and the kitchen at the back of the house. The stairs divided the sitting room and kitchen. Out the back yard was this house I dont know how to describe it but I will say a building with a washing machine downstairs and upstairs two more beds. It was like a mini apartment. It excited me being there. It was a fascinating old house and the house gave me freedom to roam and enjoy being within its walls. It held magic within to me. 

On the first floor was the lounge with a bay window. Here was where you watched television and could see out over the amazing harbour. Every now and then the harbour bridge would open to allow bigger boats to pass. I used to love sitting in the bay window watching this take place. This was one of my most favourite exciting places and I could of sat there all day by choice especially when the sun shone. The warmth of sun and the exclusion of wind can be an immense feeling. I can still hear the bells ringing to alert people to the bridge opening and the sounds of boats passing up and down the harbour. At night you could see the bridge and town all lit up and I can remember the lights on the fishing boats as they headed up the harbour to the sea. 

This bayview window was one of my most favourite places to be. It enchanted me as the view was amazing and unique even though it only looked out over a harbour. I remember sitting there in the early morning watching the world and time pass me by on its way through life. The hustle and bustle of people walking and talking. The sounds of fishermen emptying containers from their boats and throwing ropes back and two from shore to boat finishing their mornings work. I was high up overlooking life. I must of sat there every morning for five days. The fresh scenary can be immense on the eyes and mind. In that bayview window I felt safe as I was higher than the rest of life. I felt unnoticed and protected there as I viewed the world. Had anyone else noticed the boy in the first floor window as they went about their daily rituals? 

The seaside has a magical feeling to it. The sounds and smells of sea water and sea food. The sounds of the seagulls and the waves not so far away. The English seaside has a magical feeling to it. Its a place which has its own unique beauty and atmosphere.  

Opposite the lounge was the room where I slept. For some strange reason it scared me sleeping there. I think its because I was young and slept alone on that floor as my brother and mum and dad slept on the top floor in the rooms above. It was also a very old house probably once belonging many moons ago to fishermen perhaps who would of lived in the local area for work. 

This was one of my most favourite holidays I have been on I can remember the smells and sounds and atmosphere. This also was probably one of the last holidays if not the last holiday we went on as a family before my brother joined the army.  Looking back it was a magical time and a time when I was care free with no worries or bills. Life was magical and a beautiful time. Sadly at the time no one realizes the magic of youth and freedom. 

Today I returned to the harbour 19 years later. I gazed up from the street below at the house and the bay view window where I once sat quite frequently all them years ago. All the memories came flowing back of being there. I began to wonder how many other childhoods had been played out in that house on holidays by the sea? How many people had sat in that bay window since I left over the last 19 years? Was it sentimental or hold the same memories to anyone else as it did to me? 
As I stood on the street I looked up at the window where once I sat and gazed outwards. Now I gazed upwards at the same bayview window from all them years ago. Time had passed by and now I was part of the view my 13 year old eyes had seen. 

Nothing much had changed of my memory of the place time had preserved the area well. I could remember it all well. Only I had had aged it seemed in the time that had passed along forward. Would Weymouth remain like this forever long after me and all the people on streets around me had gone and their lives passed by over the years. Do the strangers on the street remember Weymouth the same way I do? 

Memories are marvellous things especially when they are memories of youth and childhood. They are more priceless and remembered more fondly. This is one of my most favourite places I have ever been and sentimental place I have. 

Sadly with our lives so busy we seem to forget memories and moments and places as we are smothered in the present and dont find time to look back at past glorious days. But I wonder how many other people have memories they haven’t unlocked for many years? How many other people have tales to tell of such simple yet wonderful moments in their lives long since forgotten? I am sure many people have wonderful tales to tell of holidays and memories long ago. 
The memory is of 19 years ago and time shall pass by and keep counting the years. Where did all them years go and why so quick? But I was once there as a child and that fact shall remain forever and although time shall pass by and the years pass quick, I shall wonder whether anyone ever knew I had ever been there in that bayview window? perhaps not but perhaps when I die and if I get a chance to revisit the places I once loved…. From time to time I shall be found as a spirit in the bay view window….gazing out in my 13 year old form…

Here is for beautiful memories we all possess. May we treasure them forever for what they truly are…..Wonderful

The dark world

Why is it that all the news and media seems to focus on bad events all the time? If you watch the news or read the newspapers there is never any good news being reported. Its all terrorism, death, rape, murder etc how can we expect to enjoy our day after reading that?  What is that doing to our minds?  It is filling us up with negativity. Is there no good news out there?  Has nothing amazing happened to make us smile and feel positive?  

The newspapers are filled with bad news and bad people where are all the good people?  Where are they hiding? Personally I get the impression that only bad news sells stories. People seem to be interested in the drama of bad news and events and situations. 

The media is a powerful tool. It can manipulate people and make them believe the side of the story they wish for people to believe and support. The news is full of the bad points of famous people and if the media doesn’t like that person then they destroy that person and make sure the world dislikes them also. People love reading of famous peoples faults written by the press because it makes them feel a little better within themselves. Can the media not try and praise celebrities? 

The media focuses on criticising body images and not personalities and puts the pressure on the world to appear in the image the media requires. In the media rarely is anyones image a good one. 

If something terrible happens in the world everyone is talking about it. It becomes the big event and the drama takes off. Songs are sung,  vigils held,  candles lit and drama unfolds. Non of this achieves nothing but drama and it changes nothing. But the scenes and drama which has been created such as vigils has created drama and the drama has pleasured many sub-concious minds. People soak up the drama of tragedy and terror without even realizing it. As much as we dont know it at the time. News of drama fuels our minds and sets our minds racing and sends an addiction within our minds because we become so interested in it. As much as we won’t admit it and we are sad of what’s happened – it has fed our minds well. 

But what if for example terrorists were not terrorists – but people doing angels work example people doing good deeds. Would there be the same drama? Would there be a media frenzy? Non stop reports all day? No because people dont share the same enthusiasm for good stories and good events. 

Often we focus on how many deaths there was in a tragic event but how many good deeds were done that day?  How many babies were born that day?  How much happiness in the world was there?  Sadly no one seems to care. If the London bridge attack hadn’t happened and instead a man went over London bridge feeding the homeless and healing the sick would the masses of people ever even know that happened? Had Glenfell tower not been sadly and tragically burned down and instead good things happen would the world know? If a rich person had gone in and split all their money between the residents there would be little made of it. 

The message of love and humanity within the media is very minimal. But plenty of it happens but the media dampens the flames of goodness. If a man did good deeds all his life and commits one bad deed. It is the bad deed he carries with him forever. He shall be forgotten for all his good and the media focus on his bad. He is forever tarnished. If only the world and the media did the opposite. 

Within the human mind is an inbuilt streak which preys upon tragedies and drama and enjoys the emotional rollercoaster. The most popular films and TV shows usually consist of tragedy or suffering in some kind of way. Mankind subconciously within alot of people has an inbuilt connection with the dark arts. 

In your life how many positives and good points do you focus on within others? I seem to think the majority of people seem to many raise the bad points within people and raise them to others attention. People you work with are usually quick to criticise and attack others but fall short on praise for others. For praise doesn’t have the same kick as destruction of others characters. People can have a good long chat with others of the faults of others etc but spend no time talking to others about how nice another person is. 

Have you ever been in a workplace with a group of people in a room. When one person leaves the room someone will then gossip about them with another negatively. They will say something critical of the person who has left the room and join in with another. This attracts everyone else in the room to join in the criticism of that person and everyone listens. It excites them hearing it and they all listen intentely. But if someone made a kind comment of the person who left the room instead. No one is interested. Human nature seems to have a streak of darkness within the majority of us of when we can unleash that darkness we most certainly do. 

The world of peace as we knew it ended on 11/9/2001. This was the end of the world of ‘peace’. Since then co-existance has been minimalized, hatred has grew,  religious intolerance and the right wing has become more dangerous and the world is a dangerous place everywhere. 

In the 1990s the last of the good symbols died such as Princess Diana and Mother Theresa and non followed into the 21st century. Only evil seems to reign within this century so far. The media spreads the evil world far and wide. 

In all the recent tragedies where are the heroes?  Who were they?  People who risked their lives to help others in need. People who did their best for humanity. Where are they? Bring them forward and honour them and let the world know them by name. You dont have to of died in the tragedies to be immortalised. Heroes are role models we need to know more of. People for us to look upto and be like these good people. Sadly the worlds culture only follows chaos and tragedy and victims of such events. 

So today lets try and see good everywhere and in everything and everyone. Lets see the beauty in everything and positivity as well. Next time you hear gossip or bad words said of someone try focus on the good points within that person because within most people is a good person. 

I believe that if Jesus came back on the same day as the devil and was performing his miracles – that the devils atrocities would grab all the media headlines and the eyes of the world… 

The great fire of London

After seeing this horrible tragedy unfolding on the news all I could think was how amazing are the emergency services. They are real true heroes fighting non stop around the clock trying to put the flames out and saving 100s of lives. I have applause applause applause for the emergency services. 

As one man said as he was going down the staircase to get out the burning building the firemen were going up towards the flames. This takes immense bravery and spirit. They risked their lives to save as many people as they can without stopping or hesitating. Other firemen climbing ladders to the reachable with the heat upon them to save the trapped is amazing scenes of heroes. They have my eternal respect. 

Some of the firemen said they knew they were facing a huge risk and entering into the towerblock was going to be bad and a massive risk to their lives as they were told to write their names and numbers on their helmets. Yet the heroes within them still faced the danger anyway. The lives of others came first even in the face of their own mortality. 

Nurses who were off duty came back on duty just to help the injured. Everyone came together in need for each other. Everyone has done their best to help as many people as they can. Humanity has come forward once again. 

The panic and terror of the people within the building must of been unimaginable. The extreme measures taken to survive must of taken a massive amount of courage and bravery. One woman dropped her baby from ten floors high into the arms of a man on the ground to save the babies life. The heat and smoke she was facing must of been unbareable. I cannot imagine ever having to take such a risk. The man who caught the baby in his arms from such a height is a true hero and nothing less. What a heroic tale and how a mothers love for her child took an ultimate risk just to give the baby a chance to survive. 

The spirit of the people has been amazing. The way people have helped others in their time of need has been amazing and shows true spirit of community and humanity. People have booked hotels near to Glenfell tower from towns far away so the people who have lost homes can stay there. People have offered rooms in their homes and people and shops have bought food and drinks for the people made homeless by such a terrible fire. 

This shows the beautiful spirit of England and of the Londoner. This shows true spirit of humanity and love for others. The good within us all has shown through. 

Donations and online funding from various towns and nations has reached into the millions. People have rallied round to help their fellow mankind. Community spirit has shown through. 

May all the missing be found safe and well I shall pray for them. 

May the victims rest in peace taken sadly in this fire of London. May such a tragedy never happen like this again. 

Being shy 

Being shy can be one of the worse curses on a persons life especially towards adulthood. It is seen as kind of a cute thing in children but plagues the world of adults. It becames embarrassing and difficult and can be undealable at times. 

I was always shy as a child its not something I could combat easy. I didn’t make new friends easy because I didn’t like to approach people and always wondered what would I say etc and I suppose part of shyness is the fear of their reaction towards you. What if they dont like you?  What if they dont speak back? All the questions go through the mind. 

I never used to like walking into rooms that had a lot of people in them such as at family gatherings as I knew the attention would be on me and my face would go red. I wouldn’t know what to say etc. This was accepted in childhood but adulthood it can come across in a man as an entirely different thing. 

As I got older shyness came with me. Shyness was part of me. It became a nightmare for the boy-girl situation as I was too shy to speak to any girls I liked and if any girl spoke to me I would go red in the face and feel and probably look stupid. 

Shyness is a difficult situation to control. It can lead you to say and do the most stupid things when speaking to people and embarrass you further. Its so hard to combat. You can feel yourself going red in the face and then panic sets in within you. The fear of the chat with someone and the anxiety overtake you. The fight within yourself overcomes you and you say anything or do anything to try and hide it but make it worse and it spills out into your outer world for example if someone says hello you have to go that one step further just to try and show an image of composure to others by asking them a further question or doing something to distract attention from yourself. Example when I was young I think I pushed a friend etc and tried to deflect attention away from me onto him but just made me look stupid probably and strange. 

Being shy makes the real you suppressed and you cannot break a shell you are within. You just want to hide from the situation you find yourself in. You want to beamed up away from it and somewhere you feel safe. I spent many times wishing I could teleport to somewhere else. The feel of dread is a horrible feeling. 

Luckily I am not so shy these days. There are times when I go red in the face and suffer a little but usually these are throwbacks such as if I see someone from school I haven’t seen for years and sends me back into them times of shyness I once lived. 

Being shy can be a nightmare and so hard to overcome. It can lead to embarrassment and fear and strange events and actions you never wanted to do in first place. It can plague your life.

I feel sorry for people who are shy because I once lived it. May we all overcome shyness and be able to find composure and peace within and be ourselves. 

Theresa May resign

Theresa May possibly has to of caused so much uncertainty on the countrys future and shown how politically weak she is and how weak minded she also is. Her manifesto was weak and constantly changed and there was a conservative ship being sailed in this election with no captain and was steered by the waves. 

Now the ship has entered stormy seas and so has the British nation. If we wasnt in chaos enough before the election we definately are now. Theresa May said we need stability. Now we have non of that. She has given us anything but stability. 

The whole election campaign was a disaster and went backwards. When she took over conservatives were in such a strong place with a massive majority. David Cameron left the conservatives strongly placed. She destroyed all that and left it as once again a coalition government needed as she didn’t gain enough seats to of achieved a majority. She now desperately needs support. She failed in the election even though conservatives achieved the most seats it was not down to her. Non of the seats won was because of her. Her weak hearted campaign surely wouldn’t of made anyone follow her. 

She went into the election over confident and arrogant and cocky believing the opposition had no chance and that she would win easily. She couldn’t even be bothered to do election debates and never shown up. She campaigned weakly and was badly wounded. 

She is far too weak to be the primeminster of the United kingdom. She is too indecisive and even her name sounds indecisive. 

She believes in fox hunting. Anyone who is cruel to animals is heartless and surely will be heartless to humans as well. 

The whole country has surely lost faith in her. She failed to make an impact in the election and is hanging by a thread. She is desperate now and trying to allign herself with an extremist government so she can stay in power. 

She must admit she is weak and not capable of the job and she should stand down and resign or call another election. I won’t be voting for her. 

I suggest she resigns and does the right thing for the nation as she had led us into further chaos. 

We need a strong organized leader who the British can have faith in. 

The two options are she resigns or calls another election…. 

Theresa May – Walk away. 

Words of Angels

Mankind you have become lost once again and the world is slowly becoming covered in darkness. I have seen you for many years fighting over land and rubble and old holy books but why? You are all Gods children he created everyone equal regardless of race or creed he created humanity. All are welcome as one in the heavens. 

If it was your last day on Earth would you be proud of the things you have done in your life? 

Could you look God in the eyes and say you was righteous? 

You all talk of angels but how many of you try to be like the angels? 

Can you truly face the prospect of death and the oncoming heavens knowing you have a heavy heart and sins you commited without care once upon a time? When there’s no time for redemption with those you hurt or wronged. No time for redemption with God for your wrong doings. 

There is much love in honour and purity and truth. There is much hope in being genuine and true to yourself. There is no shame in love for one another. 

Did God not make you out of love?  He created humanity with love being his main objective. Love can heal this world. Dont let hate dominate. When God made humanity from love all the angels bowed before mankind in adoration. 

Believe in the divine and love always and dont be ignorant of splendour and love. All the answers to the world problems lie within the divine minds of mankind. 

Always remember angels have no words for hate but endless words for love. Peace and love is the first music the angels sang. 

Believing in Angels and that unseen wonders are watching over you can truly be a life changing experience. When you are sad the belief of angels will raise you up. The comfort of the belief in angels watching over you is nothing short of immense. 

Its true that angels have wings and can fly and mankind cannot,  but mankind can truly fly by the love and support of each other. 

Senseless wars achieve nothing at the end of the day but ignorance of love and understanding. Ignorance of humanity and warmth of any belief in the divine. But the divine is real and sees all that you do. 

Whatever you believed you have achieved through conquest, violence and persecution against others – the truth is you have achieved nothing – certainly not in the hereafter. 

Always be positive and share positivity because positivity is a world where angels dance. 

We are all at Gods mercy. Please dont fail him and his word. God has lost faith in humanity before. Please dont let it happen again. Many say they dont believe in God but would they be happy if God said he didn’t believe in you?  It is so easy for mankind to abandon God but what happens if he abandons you? 

Mankind open your eyes to the beauty within your world. Why ruin this wonderful one chance to live on this Earth? Why squander the love of the world it has to offer?  Many a soul passed on from Earth misses the warmth of sun and it is a long time without the sounds of the rain. Earth is your oppurtunity and your chance to discover the gateway into the heavens and paradise. 

Make the most of your life and continue to walk a path of such wonder and belief and hope. Never give up hope for hope is what gets us to our dreams. 

Never stop being kind and never let your heart be black. Without kindness in your world what kind of a life are you living? 

When the world is hell and within you is hurt. Just hear the voices of angels whisper ‘we believe in you’ for all Gods angels are here to watch over humanity and uprise humanity from its darkest hours. So believe in angels for angels are power of hope and redemption and the mercy of almighty God. 

Uprise against hate,  ignore those who lead you astray,  believe in the good within yourself because it exists. Focus on your positives and positives of the world. Never lose faith or heart. Never allow evil to become you because evil is not truth. 

So see the good in everything in this world. There is good everywhere and in everything. There is beauty and wonder within everything. There is love everywhere and within everyone. No one can deny such a wonderous thing. 

Mankind must wander from the darkness surrounding it and back into the light of God and love. 

Look to the sky mankind and say ‘I believe in angels’ because the angels are within your heart. 

Believe in the love of your brothers and sisters in humanity….for you are together as mankind